I Quit My Job and Changed My Life!
I know that you know that the meaning of life is love.
Catch up with Can We Please Talk About Death? and Have We Lost Our Souls? But also – isn’t it happiness?
True Happiness
I recently found out that all the love in the world couldn’t fix something that deeply made me unhappy. I love my husband, I fiercely love my children, I love my friends. I love croissants and they are readily available. But I couldn’t shake the unhappiness I felt over my career.
When hate runs deep
I hated my job. I’d worked there for around 11 years with a few stints over here and having babies over there. After we decided that we have enough children and I started back at work, suddenly my future looked bleak. I found myself at a desk, in an office, doing a job that was totally wrong for me, and I thought “This can’t be it.”
I. Just. Can’t.
I realised that I no longer had anything to look forward to. This was it. This was what I did now. I came to an office, I typed up boring emails, I ate a late lunch so my afternoons were shorter and I hated every second of those seven hours and 15 minutes. No more maternity leave. No upcoming holidays. Absolutely no hope. I was totally uninspired. But I couldn’t let this happen.
The Game of Life
You know that board game, ‘The Game of Life’? The one where you choose your own adventure on a board? Well, I was now on a mission to create the life that I wanted, one board game step at a time. As a relentless soul-searcher, I believe that we are spiritual beings having a human experience. I know you may think me a dill but hear me out.
Spiritual Bildo
In a moment of clarity, in that moment when I thought “this can’t be it,” I made a decision. This won’t be it. I can control my own destiny and I got myself this far, but it was time for a gear shift. I took stock of my life and I understood that I have been neglecting my career because I was focusing on my family. But now that my family have all vacated my body and I was a free agent again, it was time to zone in on the only part of my life that I truly felt unfulfilled with – my career.
I knew what I didn’t want…
Now I had to figure out what I did want. And what I wanted first and foremost was to enjoy my job. No more boring ass jobs and working in boring ass offices. That part of my life is over.
You do you, boo.
I want a job that excites me, that involves travel. And I want to do something happy and joyful. I want to make people laugh. My face already does half the work so the rest couldn’t be that hard. And I realised that I have been doing all of that with my real love and side hustle, my sweet blog TBoB and the podcast Lindalin and I started, Wine Chats with Bildo and Lindalin.
I was getting all the right feels and the stars were aligning. I realised that I’ve been laying down the groundwork for my new career for years and now was the time to take a chance and go for it.
It’s now or never, right?
So I quit my job
That’s right, I did it! The end of 2019 saw me quitting my office job and 2020 has started out with me in the Boss chair. So far, I have been a very lax boss with not a lot of rules and absolutely no uniform, but that’s cool, we’re working on it.
Boss Bildo
I gave up amazing benefits, flexible work, a team full of women who I loved – but I gained peace.
I gained a sense of myself and what I really wanted to do. And don’t roll your eyes at my wishy washy ways, but I finally started listening to the Bildo that’s been trapped inside, suppressed and quieted for too long.
I became so scared to leave my cushy job (even though it made me miserable), that I forgot what I am really made for – and that’s you. I’m made to entertain you and make you laugh.
I said LAUGH, damn it!
So stick with me and I promise we’ll have a lot of fun together. This year, Lindalin and I are starting a YouTube Channel and we will be infiltrating your phone feeds and lives in every way possible. We’re shooting for the stars and taking you with us!
And in that spirit, I would love to know all your thoughts and suggestions for future posts and topics, so hit me in the comments below or feel free to email me at billimilovanovic@gmail.com.
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Can’t wait to hear from, you!
Remember – you do you, don’t be a dick and most of all – be happy!
Love from me, to you,
B.
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